My favorite part about our relationship is so simple: it’s just the fact that we even have one! This hasn’t been an easy event in my life by any means…but by building the relationship with Alex and Amy before Barrett was even born, and growing from that even further when we spent days in the hospital together for his birth, and even leading up to this very day, is something that I’m so glad we all put the effort into and I cherish it.
I can feel the love that Alex and Amy have for myself, for my older son and for B. Having an open adoption has been one of my biggest priorities from the very beginning. Luckily, it has grown to be even more open than we all originally agreed upon. I know that even though I feel sad or lonely sometimes, all I have to do is text them and I can see him again. I was even able to witness his first time rolling over. I will always consider myself very lucky for that. I take comfort in knowing I will get to see things like that even if I’m not physically there. In my opinion, they key to having a successful open relationship is honesty. I even mentioned to Alex and Amy that one thing I loved about them before I chose them was that they were honest with me. I had really wanted to be able to have visits every year. They both explained that while they would love that as well, it wasn’t something they could promise doing. So, we made a promise to say that we would always TRY to see each other at least once a year. They even have offered for me to come and visit them if they can’t make it to me! Does it make me sad that there is a chance I may not get to see him in person one year? No, because we have talked so much about other options and I know that I will still get to see him in pictures of through video.
I was also always honest about my past and because of that, we know it will help us to be prepared for the future.
They say every day gets a little easier than the last. It’s so true. Both Amy and Alex have helped me to feel like I can breathe again. They remind me that it’s all going to be ok. They are my family and Amy and I have gotten so close…close enough that I consider her to be like a sister to me.
They remind me that I can have comfort in my decision and I am so so grateful I was given you to parent my sweet Barrett.