So often in adoption, once the paperwork is complete, the home study is done, and the applications turned in, it can feel like nothing is happening. Like the adoption journey has come to an abrupt halt as you wait to be chosen and matched with an expectant family. The silence can be deafening, and the lack of movement paralyzing. But so often, God is working behind the scenes, maybe even across the country, preparing all of the details in His perfect timing. Kevin and Kaylee know about the agonizing wait. And they also know about God’s amazing faithfulness.
“I wait for the Lord, my soul does wait, and in His word I put my hope.” Psalm 130:5
Ever since I was a little girl, I couldn’t wait to become a mom. Whenever asked, “what do you want to be when you grow up?” The answer was always, “a mommy!” And after marrying my college sweetheart, we were both so excited to start our family. Years of infertility and multiple miscarriages were definitely not an expected part of the plan. We felt an incredibly deep sadness and were worried we would never become parents. Then a good friend told us about Susan at Christian Adoption Consultants and encouraged us to reach out.
We started our adoption journey in January 2022. While adoption wasn’t part of our original plan, we felt like this was what God wanted us to do. We started the process full of hope and excitement. By May 2022, the paperwork was done, and we were officially on the waitlists. Checking our phones constantly, we waited with anticipation.
The excitement slowly started to drift as we heard nothing for months. Why weren’t we hearing anything? Was something wrong? Were our names really on the waitlists? Susan continued to encourage us to stay hopeful and trust God’s plan. Some days, it was easy to do. Others, we were full of doubt.
When we finally started hearing from the agencies, it was an emotional rollercoaster. A moment of hope and excitement would quickly be diminished by another “no.” It’s so hard to be so vulnerable and put yourself out there only to be told, “they picked someone else.” After a handful of “no’s” and our paperwork expiration dates creeping up, we truly felt like we might be at the end of our adoption road. We felt extremely defeated, frustrated, and hopeless.
Then in January of 2023, almost exactly a year after we first talked to Susan, we got a phone call.
We were matched on a Monday night, and our precious girl was born two days later. We truly felt like we were living in a dream. It was a whirlwind of emotions; joy, excitement, nervousness, fear of another possible “no.” But all fears washed away as we held her and started to bond with her incredible birth parents.
We are in total awe of God’s faithfulness. He knew all along that this was our daughter. Through all of the “not yets,” the tears, and the worries… our daughter was growing and preparing for her entrance into the world. The road to get here was HARD. But now, holding this amazing gift in our arms, it was absolutely worth it.