Everyone has a different adoption story, but for both John and me this is not something we ever envisioned for our family. However, the Lord had different plans. The Lord started working on me two years ago and specifically placed transracial adoption on my heart. I tried to push the idea away, but the Lord was persistent. When I first told John that I thought we were called to adopt, he was weary at first. God worked on both of our hearts for two years and started forming a desire to adopt inside us.
The Lord taught us a lot through our journey. I am a planner and you cannot plan anything when you adopt. Nothing went according to “my plan”, but I learned that the God’s plan was so much sweeter than mine.
I never wanted to adopt. In fact, when I first felt like the Lord was putting adoption on my heart, I wouldn’t even pray about it because I didn’t want to feel a calling to adopt. At this point, I cannot imagine having a child any other way. I told John the other day that I didn’t think I could love any other child the way I love Brazeal. I’m so glad the Lord’s plan was different from mine.
Not only did the Lord call us to adopt, he called us to do it for our first child. We learned quickly that it was a foreign concept to those around us that adoption can be Plan A. When you adopt, everyone immediately assumes you’re struggling with infertility. When we told people we were choosing adoption, a lot of people asked why we didn’t want our “own” kids first. For us, adoption was our Plan A!
God also worked in our hearts regarding our son’s birthmom. We originally feared Brazeal’s birth mother wanting to spend time with him at the hospital. Our hospital plan went so much different than originally planned. Looking back, John and I can both say that we know the Lord wanted us to spend time with his birth mother and to love on her like no one ever had before. We were her only “family” and her only support. We were able to encourage her, serve her, and even give her a devotion book. None of this would have happened if we didn’t spend time with her. I’m so glad the God’s plan was different from mine.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. -Jeremiah 29:11
The Lord knew the baby he had for us all along. His plans are perfect. A lot of things along our journey didn’t go according to “our plan”, but the Lord’s plan was so much sweeter.